A letter I wrote to my daughter, Emmalyn, while being hospitalized for postpartum depression, January 2011:
To My Sweet Angel Baby, Emmalyn Grace,
I hope you know how much I love you. You are my world. I also hope you know this is not your fault. I’ve never blamed you for this, nor will I ever. You are the most precious gift I’ve ever received. I thank God every day for you. You are the most incredible baby in the entire world. When I hold you and stare into your eyes, I’m at peace.
I want you to know you’re my motivation for getting better. I’ve waited and prayed for you my entire life. It’s tearing me up inside to be away from you. You’re the first thing I think about in the morning, and the last before I fall asleep. I pray to God to give me the strength to conquer this so you can be in my arms again. I’m going to be strong for you because I’d do anything for you. Always! I promise.
I’m so thankful you’ll never remember all this. & one day, if you read this when you’re older, remember how much I love you.
You are my world,
& my life,
Forever your mommy
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