I’m Still Here!

Hi Y’all!
Sorry I’ve been a terrible blogger. It’s Blake’s winter break from med school so we’ve been visiting with our family for the past two weeks. We’ve been busy, busy bees. But don’t you worry! I’ve been taking TONS of pictures (mostly of my sweet little girl who’s growing like a weed) and I can’t wait to share them. Since Blake starts back to school on Monday, I, too, will figure out get back into a routine and get back to regular blogging. I’ve missed you all so much. (And I’ve been keeping up with you, just not commenting) Thank you, also, for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. 
I hope everyone had a blessed holiday. HAPPY NEW YEAR! See ya in 2011, yo!
xoxo,
Katie

This Too Shall Pass

First of all, thank you for your generous support through this trying time. I was going to share my story, but after discussing it with my husband and doctor we’ve decided to keep it private. However, if you or someone you know is going through Postpartum Depression, PLEASE send them my e-mail: loyallovinglearning[at]ymail[dot]com
I’d love to help a sista out if need-be!
I am well on my way to feeling like myself again. Being with my family, and especially my precious little daughter has helped immensely. 
Motherhood is much harder than I ever expected, but it sure is rewarding.
Just look at this face:

[again, sorry for the iphone picture quality]

God Bless!
This Too Shall Pass


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Today’s my birthday, yo!
I’m the big 2-4!
{My lucky number!}
We’re in town visiting our parents for the holidays and so my mom asked me what I wanted for dinner. I told her my favorite childhood meal: spaghetti with meat sauce with a side of raw cucumbers and raw green peppers with peanut butter.
Weird? Perhaps.
But that’s what the birthday girl wants! HA!
*****
Okay, in serious news. I have something to share and I debated posting about it. But here goes. I have postpartum depression. I’m not ready to share my story, as I’ve yet to sit down and write it any way, but I wanted to let you know. This past week was the hardest and scariest time of my entire life. I have immediately gotten help from my doctors and am on medication. I am doing much better. There’s still a long road ahead, but I am strong and will get through it. My husband and daughter are my rocks.
At first I was ashamed, but now I just want to bring awareness to other moms. Postpartum depression is serious and it needs to be taken care of immediately. I’m thankful I am getting the help I need.
Please keep my family and me in your prayers. This is something that will take some time to heal. I will share my story soon–I feel it’s extremely important.
Until them, we’re super busy showing off our adorable little love, decorating for Christmas, and visiting with friends and family. 
Life is good.
[sorry for the iPhone picture quality]
I hope everyone is enjoying the holidays!
xoxo

ONE MONTH, BABY!

Dear Emmalyn Grace,

Oh my gawd! You are ONE MONTH old! I cannot believe it. I don’t even know where to begin or how to form the words I want to say. You are my everything. From the moment I laid eyes on you and held you in my arms, I knew you were mine f.o.r.e.v.e.r. The feeling in my heart in unexplainable. I just want to shout from the rooftops that you’re MY girl and are the most incredible being in the entire world. I don’t even think that would do my feelings for you justice.
The whole last month has gone by way too fast….  

There are many things that happened this FIRST month:
At three days old, you found your thumb and love it. You sometimes like tummy time, but mommy makes you do it any way, which is why you have such strong neck muscles already! You’ve been strolled around the neighborhood numerous times. And while you hate being put in your car seat, once we’re moving you’re a happy little baby. You’ve experienced your first Thanksgiving and Hanukkah. 


On December 1, you went on your first outing with just Mommy. We went to a “Little Nippers” class at the Women’s Center for new moms. It was a huge success because you were such a good girl [thank you!]. On the 3rd, we decided to give you a pacifier because you’re always trying to suck on your fingers or ours. Sometimes you like it and other times you spit it out. You’ve had your first playdate already, with Aidan, and he was just smitten with you. You’ve also had your first tear, but just out of your left eye. You’ve been a busy little bee, too, running errands with mommy to Walmart, Target, Michael’s Crafts, Petco, and Publix. You’re such a good little helper 🙂 


You’ve only had one really cranky day [knock on wood]. You had your first diaper blow-out and Mommy froze! (ha!) Thank goodness GG was here to help. You had your first ‘real’ bath and you weren’t too pleased. Mommy and Daddy got it on the video camera and we can’t wait to show it to you one day. Your second and third baths went much better! You didn’t even cry until it was time to get dressed. We think you’re going to be a water baby. [Not like you have a choice because Mimo and Papo can’t wait to take you out on their boat and teach you how to water ski.] 


Mommy and Daddy have been waking you up at night to feed, but since the doctor was pleased with your weight gain, she said we didn’t have to wake you up anymore. So, Tuesday, (Dec. 14) night, you felt asleep at 11pm and Mommy ended up waking you at 5:30am to eat, then you went back down until 8:30am! You love sleeping in your sleep-rocker and mommy loves that you’re right next to her. Noises don’t seem to disturb you–especially your furbrother’s barks. [thank goodness!] I don’t know how long you’ll stay in our bedroom, but for now it works for everyone.


We’re so happy you are so low-maintenance [I wonder how long that’ll last! hehe] In the mornings, you listen to Mommy sing her two ‘Good Morning’ songs (off-key of course) and when you’re fussy, you love Daddy’s ‘Curious Baby’ song he made up. I love just watching you watch me. And when you smile? Oh, how my heart melts. And when you stick out your bottom lip when you’re upset? Heart.melts.even.more. Mommy calls you “Sour Puss” when you do it. [Oh, but it’s so cute]


Emmalyn, I can’t tell you how much you mean to me. You have been my strength through these hard times. I love you so much it hurts.
With all my heart and soul…
Forever your Mommy,
I love you…


Birth Weight:
6lbs 14 oz.
Current Weight:
7lbs 8oz
*
Birth Length:
20 inches
Current Length:
20.5 inches

A look back at the FIRST MONTH:


I love her.


Baby’s 1st Ornament

I’ve been trying to find an ornament for Emmy’s first Christmas, but decided it would be more meaningful and memorable if I made one for her instead. [Meaningful and memorable for mom… lol] Plus, I needed something quick and easy because it’s a lot harder to get big projects done these days!
I got a clear ornament and here’s what I filled it with:

I also put in pearls and rhinestones but forgot to take pictures.
Then, these letter stickers for her name:

I’m pleased with how it turned out
🙂

Emmy’s Getting Married

Okay, well not quite yet. But when she does… this is going to be her husband:


It’s already been arranged. 
The End.

{tehe}

Emmalyn had her first playdate on Monday. My friend, and fellow med school wife, Ashley came over with her super adorable son, Aidan. Of course Em is too little for Aidan to play with {sorry buddy!} but it was still cute having them together.


😉

Three Weeks

I just wanted to thank you all for sending me well wishes for my recovery. It was definitely a scary time–not knowing why I was feeling so sick; having to go to the ER twice; hearing my doctor say she doesn’t know what’s going on with me; getting referred to specialists. I’m glad I listened to my body and went with my instinct. I’m feeling 100% better! Now, I just have the normal postpartum symptoms of mommyhood… TIREDNESS! 
{lol}

But as for everything else, I couldn’t be happier. I wanted to do weekly updates on baby and mom, but never thought I’d be so out of it for two weeks. So here we are, at THREE WEEKS:




Baby Stats:

Sleep: 
Emmalyn’s sleep is still semi-unpredictable. But she does sleep a lot. Blake and I have found that she loves to be most awake somewhere between the hours of 11pm and 3am. My mom said I was the same way. She used to watch Johnny Carson with me; and here I am, now watching Leno and Fallon. {payback?} Emmy doesn’t like to sleep flat on her back in the pack ‘n play, so we have her in Fisher Price’s Rock n Play Sleeper. My cousin Holly sent it to us and it’s been a life saver. I would highly recommend it to any new moms. It folds up and is light-weight so you can bring it anywhere in your house. 

Feed: 
Emmy is eating 2oz every three hours during the day, with two four-hour stretches at night. We’re going to try to up some of her feedings during the day to 3oz so she (and mom and dad) can get a longer stretch of sleep at night. 

Daily Routine:
What routine? {ha} The day basically consists of me running around like a mad woman trying to accomplish odds ‘n ends in between her feedings and time awake. I’ve been slacking on tummy time, which I’m determined to change. My Mommy ‘n Me class says we should be doing it several times a day.

Clothes Size:
Newborn onesies, pants, and outfits; and 0-3 month gowns. 

Hair Color:
At birth: Bald {lol} / light brown
At three weeks: coming in more and more each day in the back, brown

Eye Color:
At birth: dark blue
At three weeks: dark blueish-hazely-green
(Mom has dark brown, Dad has green with a little hazel)

Weight:  
She weighed 6lbs 14oz at birth, but we have no idea what she weighed when we left the hospital. At one week, she dropped to 6lbs 8oz, but then was back up to her birth weight at two weeks. Now, at three weeks, she weighs exactly 7 pounds 


Milestone:
Mommy finally figuring out how to use the Moby Wrap. It has been a lifesaver! When Emmy is wide awake and I need to get stuff done, like say, ummm brush my teeth perhaps, I just stuff put her in there {she cries at first} then she LOVES it! And I love having my little girl all snuggled up with me 🙂 WIN! WIN!
My mommy says I’m cute… and she ain’t lion!
{bwahaha}


Mommy Stats:

Pre-Pregnancy weight: 
110







Day of delivery weight: 
141

{last belly pic taken at 38 weeks}

Current weight: 
119


Weight to go: 
9 pounds!

Pre-pregnancy size: 
0

Current size: 
I can get my size zero jeans up around my hips, but can’t quite fully zip and button them. Guess I’ll be living in leggings this winter!


I’m surprised at how much weight came off in such a short amount of time. And can you believe I never got a single stretch mark? {please don’t hate!} I never spoke or wrote about it in, in fear that I would jinx it! ha! I can’t wait until the doc gives me the go ahead to exercise. For now, I’ll just be enjoying stroller walks with my girl. I plan on documenting my progress, so hopefully it’ll hold me accountable! 


🙂

The Time He Looked Like a Jerk

My husband is the most chivalrous man I know (he learned it from his father).


He’s the type of guy that will ALWAYS open every.single.door (car included) for me.


But the other day, he looked like the biggest jerk.


In his defense though, it wasn’t his fault. I made him look like that.


Let me explain… We needed to go to Target to get some baby bottles. I told Blake I didn’t want him to help me with the baby because I needed to learn how to “go out” by myself. Since I’m a stay-at-home-mom, I’m going to want/have to get out of the house with Emmy. I’ll also have to run a lot of errands without my husband since he has a demanding schedule with med school (and this is only the beginning). I did, however, want B to “chaperone” me just in case I really needed his help! =P



So… I drove the three of us to Target. One tip I’ve received is always park next to the cart return. (Vanessa, if you’re reading this, your mom taught me that!) That way, you don’t have to lug the car seat alllll the way back to your car. So that’s just what I did. We got out of the car and I went to take Emmalyn out, while Blake just idly stood by. There actually weren’t any carts in the cart return, so I had to carry the car seat all the way into Target. 


This made B pretty uncomfortable (and me laugh out loud) because people were already staring at him. They were probably thinking, Look at that guy–he’s not helping his young wife with their new baby?! We get inside Target and I go to put the car seat in the cart. I don’t know about your local Target carts, but the car seat doesn’t exactly fit perfectly. I kept finagling it around and was asking B if it looked okay. He was using hand gestures to try and show me what to do, but didn’t physically help me…. so, again… we got even more stare-downs. 


It was so important to me, though, that I stayed Little Miss Independent. If B helped me, how was I to know if I were able to do this by myself, right? Trying to see over Em’s car seat was actually the most challenging, y’all! My five-foot-two body could just barely see over the top and I was worried I was going to run over a small child or old lady, or maybe even a display. That would be sooo embarrassing!


When it came time to check out, Blake STILL didn’t help me. I put all the bags in the cart and made sure to get out my sunglasses and keys before heading out the door. I was trying my best to think ahead. This was the part I was most nervous about… How was I going to get the bags and baby in the car, AND return the cart? 


This is where parking by the cart return comes in handy. First, I put all the bags in the trunk. I then made the mistake of taking Emmy out of the cart next. This made it difficult to return the cart because I only had one readily available hand and had to maneuver it around without hitting my car. What I should have done was stroll the cart to the return, THEN take the car seat out. (Rookie…)


Next, I put Emmy in the car, but Blake did have to remind me to push down the handle bar (whoops…thanks, babe!)


All in all, though, it was a huge success, I’d say! Since I was on a roll, I even went to get gas afterwards. Normally, I lock all the doors when I’m by myself, but this time I kept the driver’s door open. Even though I had the keys in my hand, I still had a fear that if I shut the driver’s door it would somehow magically lock and my keys wouldn’t work! (mommy paranoia much?)


Even when we got home, B still didn’t help me. I brought Emmy into the house first (and left her in the car seat), then propped the door open so I could carry in the bags, then took Indy outside. 


The. End. 


*phew*


Are any of you seasoned mommas reminiscing about your first outing with a baby? Was it anything like mine? A success? Or maybe a complete ‘mom FAIL’? Do tell.

Happy Hanukkah!

What’s great about having an interfaith family is we never have to split the holidays between the in-laws 😉

[Who knew Betty Crocker made Hanukkah candles? 😉 …I forgot to buy some for the first night, so this is all B could find at Publix lol] 


*****
My parents came this weekend for Emmy’s 1st Hanukkah:
[thanks cousin Alice for the adorable onesie!]


Happy Hanukkah!

Sunday Stickies

Things I never thought I’d do with my newborn baby…
{but we all know how this went down and it’s been one of the best decisions we’ve made for our family… and that’s all that matters}

{I used to *gasp* at the moms who brought their teeny tiny babies to public places like Target and Wally World, but honestly, when you gotta go, you gotta go. We just made sure to keep our hands clean, and covered her up!}

{Oh, this one. I was TOTALLY against pacifiers before I was pregnant. But let’s be real… my girl needs it. There are just times when she needs a soothie. And there are times when mom is falling over starving needs to fix lunch and has a fussy baby who does not want to be put down. The binky fix allows me to do that. She’ll usually only suck on it for a few minutes, then spit it out, or we’ll take it out after she’s calmed down. Blake looked up the medical pro’s and con’s of pacifiers: 
PROS: soothes a fussy baby, temporary distraction, help baby fall asleep, and may help reduce sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS) [source]}
[she still looks cute!]

{I never thought I’d be okay leaving my baby behind, but last night my parents watched Emmy for a few hours while B and I finally went to see Harry Potter. I missed her, but I wasn’t a nervous wreck like I thought I’d be! Go me!}

Happy Sunday, Everyone!


If you haven’t read Emmy’s Birth Story yet, check it out here!